with a heart of thanksgiving benita joan and i are heading for total world domination. ok, so

Tuesday: good training, met B&J and it was fun and good, and awesome.

Wednesday: DRUMS. Jenson for making me laugh and opening up the bass/piano room for me to study in, John for winning his trials/match, MOM FOR BEING BEAUTIFUL :)

Thursday: My parents who really love each other and my dad who is so cute for falling asleep on the floor, beating the traffic jambamwhamsham on the way home because the security guard opened the bus stop gate for me :)

FridayL it is difficult to thank God when tournament is in 3 days and i pulled my shoulder.. but well, I give thanks that jabez and i won our match anyway, and I get to rest more tmr and do homework.. okay, okay, i am okay. :'(

Saturday: so i didn't do any homework, but i got to catch up on sleep and spend some time with mom, drank toffee nut latte, (he he hv starbucks STILL HAS IT!!) felt sooo miserable and unneeded ha ha but JOHN MAKES IT ALL OKAY LONG LANKY JOHN with the beautiful cheeky smile and indulgent love for liquid crystal meth.

okay so i am unconcerned with what other rebellious teenagers (think classmates and well.. nearly everyone i know) think of me for this but mom and dad left 0.000000001 seconds ago for a wedding dinner and i miss them already k k off to go pretend i do not want to smother the top of john's head with kisses. gnight!!! (omg i just remembered sigh.. i know its good to serve God right and i must do it with an xtremely glad heart but i feel so.. tired and -- to send Michelle the prayers for tmr :( :( :'( )

million things to do xxxxxxxxxx another weekend wasted because i know it isn't sunday yet but AFTER SUNDAY COMES MONDAY AND WITH MONDAY COMES.. ANOTHER MILLION THINGS TO DO oiaeuoancakihwiofhoaipqhfaihalhfsakfalcawiocoiaz xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx i only want wednesday. :''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''( IN REPLY TO YOUR EMAIL YUXUAN, RIGHT NOW I AM NOT LIVING MY LIFE HOW I TOLD YOU I AM LIVING IN MISERY AND LISTLESSNESS AND A TOTAL LACK OF COLOUR. GOODNIGHT

there is stupid, AND THEN THERE IS ME i have since gotten over it but let me tell you of a fascinating progression of events.

on wednesday i was like "k i need new tennis shoes because my soles are so worn out they have holes" and so kai and i go to queensway and in twenty minutes i find my perfect shoe (2007 model you see i've worn it before) and OMG THEY HAVE MY SIZE US7 LALALA XCITE HAPPY GOD-SENT BLESSING and i am content and i go home and happy happy.

ON THURSDAY i walk around wearing socks because i want to keep my new shoes as new as i can :) and during training.. i hit upon the realisation that omg my shoes are soo loose why not retie my laces (and so at the same time i check the size of my shoes because at home i now have 3 of the same pair one of which is UK7 because i am an idiot) and omg OMG OMG THE SHOES I AM WEARING ARE UK7 WHICH MEANS I HAVE WORN THE WRONG PAIR OF SHOES TO SCHOOL THEY ARE NOT INDEED MY NEW SHOES.

AND THEN IT HITS ME THEY HAVE TO BE THE NEW ONES BECAUSE THEY ARE SO WHITE AND PRISTINE AND CLEAN AND BEAUTIFUL (AND THE DIAMOND THERE TWINKLES STILL SO BRIGHTLY YES I SWEAR MY SHOE HAS A DIAMOND ON IT!! :O) ) AND THAT MEANS OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG "OMG BETS I BOUGHT THE WRONG SIZE SHOES I SAW US 7 WHEN IT IS SECRETLY UK7 = US 8.5 AND NO WONDER IT IS SO LOOSE AND OMG I HATE MYSELF AND AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH A HUNDRED DOLLARS AHHHHH I AM SO PISSED AHHHHHHHH"

Betty: "Jean, there is stupid, and then there is YOU"

posting because i never did manage to tell you about how school is and now you are gone and so, this is for you, wenyao! school is alright i have an alright physics teacher she says it is common for frustration while learning physics and while i admit that may mean i'm on the right track, i much prefer the way you believe in breezing through topics simply because. i got banded into class A for chinese.. :( i know i seem rather nonchalant about chinese in school but the fact is that i put in shitloads of effort and no one thinks i do because i don't get the results!! this pisses me off also because 'A ban' is like the last class and and the first is called xin xin ban and hell yeah i would love to be a star star. the rest of my teachers are nondescript but i got my awesome lit teacher back i'm so happy about that :) :) today mom and i had a conversation about going to acs for IB simply because there are 48 44-/45-pointers as compared to millions of straight-a scorers in RJHC and the million other jcs and the world and other stupid things like that. i feel almost discontent and scared because nationals are approaching in 3 weeks and i am feeling like screaming and so.. exhausted i find myself having to wake up at 4 already to catch up on homework i am losing weight and the tattoo on my back peeled off with my skin and right now i don't feel special.. i feel incompetent and other things like that. this is turning into a rant but its been a while since we talked, i'm glad i got to give you the card, and THE SEALS, and here's to you coming back soon :o)